During everyone’s journey through this life, we tend to pick up a cross to bear, much like Jesus did. My crosses are a critical attitude/judgment and self-doubt. If we want to live the most joyous and full life that we can imagine, we must learn how to lay down our cross. We must learn how to know what our crosses are and to not avoid them, just choose not to pick them up. For me Jesus made it very clear that judgment is not my cross to bear, this is the role of the creator. Make no mistake, time will test you daily. There will be dozens if not hundreds of opportunities to pick up your crosses throughout the day. The key is to be aware of what your crosses are and recognize the triggers of these crosses in our lives. My cross of judgment is not mine and to keep picking it up is detrimental to my journey, it limits me in my growth. To judge others is to judge yourself, to expose the impurities of your thoughts.
I believe my critical behavior stems from self-doubt. When one feels they are not worthy of something, they start to look for reasons why these desired things are not in their life and they start to judge others to move the focus off themselves. This is painful to be a part of, when it becomes so deeply rooted in one’s nature that you cannot see it until it is done. A fitness trainer will be quick to tell you there will be a wall that you hit, a point that you must overcome to be successful in your fitness journey. This is true for all of life’s successes. Even those that are experiencing a near utopia life will hit more walls in their journey, there will be more crosses laid in front of them. The experience of life is this. We do not have to pick up these crosses, we have been granted free will by our creator. Whatever your cross is, lay it down, it is not yours. Secondly, the identification of your crosses can seem overwhelming at first, but this is a necessary step in your progression. Once you identify the problem you stop treating the symptoms and you begin treating the disease, as they might say in the medical profession.
It is easy to justify our choice to pick up a cross that is not ours to bear. For me I justify self-doubt by focusing on missteps and failures as a point of justification. The amount of thoughts that pass through one’s brain in a 24-hour period are great and to choose to use any of our brain’s computing power to doubt ourselves is silly. The creative power of this universe, of you, resides in you. Waste no time thinking of things you do not or did not want, for if you do, you will just attract more of those things into your life. I justify critical thoughts of others though the feeling, that the other does not understand or they are not thinking it through. Don’t they realize what they are doing? Do they not know none of this is as important as whatever I think is important? This is a trap for me, because I love to educate, to share what I believe I have found to be true. Only recently have I discovered that these things are truth for me, and everyone is on different paths and at different points of their path. Though I know there are truths in this life, they only have meaning if we choose to apply a meaning. There is no right and wrong, no justice in this life, because we are all a little different, we all see life’s journey a little different. Who are we to judge the actions of others? I am not promoting lawlessness, only a perspective. Please do not see this as an attack on social contracts or constitutions, it is merely a perspective to consider. To invoke this kind of social change would me, to judge others and that is against my commitment.
Do not be afraid to lay down your cross today. Do not be afraid that sudden changes in your behavior will repeal your current circle of friends. When you are in your final hours of this life experience, the opinion of others will lose all power over you. I am not advocating selfish behavior; I am suggesting you apply the instructions of Jesus and live the life of Christ. Love everything, for everything is of God. Waste no time on judgement, hate and fear. Live the life of love, peace and joy and if this drives friends away, they were not friends to you. When you begin to love unconditionally, this life, you will attract unto you those of a similar belief, this is the law of attraction. Make the choice to change, to not pick up that cross or crosses today. Remember the popular “just for today” affirmation. Just as they say in a path to recovery, you do not have to commit to change your behavior for the rest of your life, you cannot possibly do that, since you know not the future. Commit to being changed right now and in the next moment, do it again, and again until the day is over and then start again tomorrow, moment by moment. Seek now the kingdom, for it is at hand., do not wait for tomorrow is not guaranteed. Live life today, chose to be the best you, you can be today, lay down your cross today.